Dirrty

I have no idea what's going on in my mind right now. My thoughts keep going over and over about the same thing. And I have no idea why. I'm not forcing myself to think these things. I don't want to think these things. I don't want to have these visions, these dreams.

I feel dirty...unclean. I feel like a right-down pervert.

I can't face the people...I know who they are. Yes. You read it right. It's they, as in plural. Not just one person. It's 2 or 3. Horrible to think that this can happen.

People say it's normal, it's natural. I feel like I should join the Sex Addict Anonymous.

I want this to stop. But it does feel nice. It does have a great feeling.

But it's not that great when you're having visions while you're at work, in front of the PC and you're colleagues are everywhere around you.

Is it because of hormones? I don't know. It's not my cycle yet. This is just too weird.

Dirrty