If Only

Don't I deserve a second go

To say the words I love you so
Or didn't my face say it all
When my eyes lit up just seeing you near
Did you have to go away?
Not a word .. not a whisper .. not a sound

Was I wrong to turn my back on you
Afraid you'll see the truth in my eyes
Doubting what you felt
Was it the same as of I

You should know
I regret every word
I regret every move
Or lack thereof

If I could, I would
I would change the past
And you will then know the truth

Of the way you make me feel
The way you make me smile
The words I wish to utter so bad

And the pain and the hurt from holding it back
The mask that I put on everytime you're around me
Everytime you come near
With that sweet smile you greet me
Can I have you back in my life?
Did you have to move on so soon

I've been always thinking of you
Even though I lie to myself everytime I do

I flip through the albums of memories past
And wonder what it would be ...
Any different than this
If only ...
What if ...

If Only